the day ~

FYZA + DEBBIE ~

last day after paper ENGINEERING DRAWING ... 

she offered herself okeyh ??

its for memory for almost 2 years in the same class with her and all the gang .. 

although 

sometimes disagreement happened .. 

but, we still

STICK TOGETHER AS FRIENDS 

and 

NO ONE CAN DENY IT !!

credit to Eqa !

tq yea .. 

nice ~~

the story goes like this ... 

now, we were the SPM candidates .. 

no doubt on it .. 

but ..

yeah .. SPM mean FUTURE and FUTURE mean we have to find our own next step 

in life ... 

no more high school ..

no more friends we used to hang out with .. 

and of course .. 

the memories will be on our mind all the time ... 

SORRY FOR ALL THE WRONGS I'VE DONE .... 

cut the sadness .. find the happiness !!

hey !! 4 MORE DAYS TO CHRISTMAS !!

whats the plan ??

celebrate with everybody ~~

now ... 25th of DECEMBER 1988 ... this beautiful lady was born ... 

she's 22 this year .. 

 HAPPY BIRTHDAY SIS !!!!!!!

MERRY CHRISTMAS !!

PEACE LOVE & JOY of CHRISTMAS !

 

given by : HELEN HENQLE ~ the girl who loves ORANGE and GREEN !

her message to DEBBIE WILSON DAVIS .. 

me of course ...

who else ???

HAHA 

:D

 MERRY XMAS !!
Wishing u this season lights up ur heart n home with joy ..
May we be blessed with LOVE,PEACE,HAPPINESS ..
Sincerely,helen .. :))

u ada ? sik ada kan ?!

HEHE

 bah2, 

thats all ... !

enjoy your christmas and new year 

start a new life ... !

GOD BLESS !

the spirit of Christmas !

me && Patricia ~

during christmas carolling ..

well, to be exact ..

before the carollers arrived at her home .. 

:DD

so tired because just back from gathering with classmates and

our English teacher

MDM. LOO 

~to MDM. LOO ... 

THANK YOU FOR EVERYTHING~

sorry ! have to edit this picture ... 

my face look quite pale ... 

but, 

nevermind .. 

still smiling right ?

HAHA

this is during CHRISTMAS PROCESSION ..

taken by LORETTA 

right before we started to walk along the road of BINTULU ... 

starting point this year same as before .. 

OLD BINTULU AIRPORT 

end point of course .. 

ESPLANADE 

MY MOBILE ~

DATE OF PURCHASE::

011010

DATE OF "SOT"::

131210

PRICE::

RM200

DATE OF PURCHASE::

030409

DATE OF TAKEN::

130709

PRICE::

RM330

now .. 

i don't care la if i bought this two mobile

with my own money ... 

not also care if they ROSAK or whatsoever ... 

but, 

UNFORTUNATELY ... 

these were bought using MY PARENT'S MONEY !!!

thats why when these two ROSAK ... 

i'll try whatever the way are to fixed them ... 

its not worth it for some people ... 

but for me ,

they are ... 

i appreciated it even my hands are kinda ROUGH with my mobile .. 

REGRET ?!!

OF COURSE I AM !!!

Our Friendship

spend hours of time doing this ..

tears rolled down ...

indicates that me really miss the fun, the laugh and most of all the joy we had ...

hopefully can do like this again another time ..

^^

time to light up the world !

In the western world, the birthday of Jesus Christ has been celebrated on December 25th.There were mid-winter festivals in ancient Babylon and Egypt, and Germanic fertility festivals also took place at this time. The birth of the ancient sun-god Attis in Phrygia was celebrated on December 25^th, as was the birth of the Persian sun-god, Mithras. The Romans celebrated Saturnalia, a festival dedicated to Saturn, the god of peace and plenty, that ran from the 17^th to 24^th of December. Public gathering places were decorated with flowers, gifts and candles were exchanged and the population, slaves and masters alike, celebrated the occasion with great enthusiasm.In Scandinavia, a period of festivities known as Yule contributed another impetus to celebration, as opposed to spirituality. As Winter ended the growing season, the opportunity of enjoying the Summer's bounty encouraged much feasting and merriment.The Celtic culture of the British Isles revered all green plants, but particularly mistletoe and holly. These were important symbols of fertility and were used for decorating their homes and altars.New Christmas customs appeared in the Middle Ages. The most prominent contribution was the carol, which by the 14th century had become associated with the religious observance of the birth of Christ.In Italy, a tradition developed for re-enacting the birth of Christ and the construction of scenes of the nativity. This is said to have been introduced by Saint Francis as part of his efforts to bring spiritual knowledge to the laity.Saints Days have also contributed to our Christmas celebrations. A prominent figure in today's Christmas is Saint Nicholas who for centuries has been honored on December 6th. He was one of the forerunners of Santa Claus.Another popular ritual was the burning of the Yule Log, which is strongly embedded in the pagan worship of vegetation and fire, as well as being associated with magical and spiritual powers.Celebrating Christmas has been controversial since its inception. Since numerous festivities found their roots in pagan practices, they were greatly frowned upon by conservatives within the Church. The feasting, gift-giving and frequent excesses presented a drastic contrast with the simplicity of the Nativity, and many people throughout the centuries and into the present, condemn such practices as being contrary to the true spirit of Christmas.The earliest English reference to December 25^th as Christmas Day did not come until 1043.

Christmas is a season to celebrate

Christmas is a season to receive

Christmas is a season to give

Christmas is a season to open the new book in life

Christmas is a season to be jolly

Christmas is a season to be with family

Christmas is a season to be what we want

MERRY CHRISTMAS !

unique not ANTIQUE ~

my hamster ~

no more her in this family ...

she's not coming back ...

i can accept it now ...

just sometime, when see her cage ...

make me realized that

i'm really empty now ..

she's my friend when

i'm feeling down ...

longing for her ...

feeling missing her so much lately ...

she never can be replaced ...

plus, included not EXCLUDED ..

me thinking when my hair can grow ?

miss my long hair ....

damn it rosak last2 month ...

huhu !

kena tegur sdh gara2 potong rambut ...

hehe ~

sorry !

no latest photo from him ~

hehe

miss him so much !

miss his voice,

miss his face ..

still remember the first time i saw him at church

nice moment ..

nice to hold ...

meant to be mine ...

DONNY ISYAK ANGGOR

perfecto !

lovin' myself here ~

haha ! nice capture bro !!

love bring me near to you ..

love make me appreciate you more ...

you steal my heart till now ..

fall in love everyday with you ...

you're the one ..

the one ...

another me from our outing ..

photo taken by MR. PAPARAZZI ..

Melchizedek Michael op koz ..

lets call him FREELANCE PHOTOGRAPHER keyh ?

hehe !

this is my new friends although me do not know them well ...

my new sister ...

want to know their face ?

lets rob it now !

introducing !!!! *drumroll please*

margaret and lozethien ...

elyvia gitu lorh ...

naa .. more about her .. me also don't know ..

but,

obviously,

she's good to me ... care about me ... nice to have sister like her even though we haven't met yet ...

don't know why ...

but, in the same time ..

i miss her too ...

hehe ~

to sista ku : margaret, lozethien and elyvia ..

suhie enchuri gambar ...

stay bajik okeyh ?

from me ... debbie ..

:)

want to meet my family ?

my new family ?

stay tuned with me DEBAB !

*new name from my cuzzie*

haha !

edited picture of

MR. and MRS. WILSON DAVIS CHAPOH

great person even though me always make them upset ...

GOD ALWAYS BLESS YOU ..

GOD BLESS YOUR 21st YEAR OF MARRIAGE ...

new person in life ...

wonder they know about me ...

hehe

hello there MR. and MRS. ANGGOR ..

nice !

WENNY WILSON DAVIS ..

sista bh nie ...

cun kan ?

syg klo borang dh full ..

haha !

next time

u dh kja ... don't forget belanja i ~

THINGS KEEP ON CHANGING

PEOPLE KEEP ON MANIPULATING OTHERS ...

BUT

ONE THING WE MUST KEEP HOLDING ON ...

L I F E M U S T G O E S O N ...

SET YOUR MINDS ON THINGS THAT ARE ABOVE

NOT ON THINGS THAT ARE ON THE EARTH ...

-FINISH-

forever me ~ DEBBIE WILSON DAVIS

gonna get this ...

its not that hard to change

if

1. really want to change

2. sincere to yourself

3. allow and accept criticism

4. live the way who we are

and the most important is

5. ENJOY and LIVE LIFE OUT LOUD !

a person will stay the same if

no will, no sacrifice, no changes, no attitude, no respect, no love, no honesty, no nothing ...

its true that we don't have anything..

but, make that anything as SOMETHING ...

don't be such a POSER ...

whats the use if and only if we are so damn smart if

no respect for others ...

lets speak out this one ...

wealth does not come from your bank account, wealth comes from the depth of your heart. What you really want is happiness. You might believe that a fat bank account will get you there, but that's false. Happy people are happy rich or poor, unhappy people are unhappy rich or poor. Money simply masks your real being by giving you activities to occupy your mind. Don't fool yourself, recession or not, your true wealth comes from your heart and is always only there.

that a successful relationship requires falling in love many times, always with the same person. Always with the same person, but deeper and deeper every time. Each time on a whole new level you together open in love and discover the truth of your beloved anew. There is no limit to the beauty of your beloved. If you think you've reached the end, stop generalizing.

Bila Cinta-Gio (male version) with lyrics.wmv

what i understand from this song is ...

accept whoever your partner are ..

appreciate them ...

Elvis Presley - Love Me Tender (Lyrics)

this is what i gave to someone this morning ...

loving this song as much as my father do ...

really nice words to expressed to someone when really in love ...

determined to change ...

but, as simple as me ..

i need to change myself ....

i try my best ....

its for my own sake ...

words from the heart

a person sent me a message in the early of the morning ...

by that time,

i do reply it by letting this person know

everything he supposed to know before ...

but,

yea ... i know this person really well

and i'm sure he understand my situation now

****

sometimes, the past is the better teacher in life ...

this person is my past ..

DONNY ISYAK ANGGOR

is my future ...

so, let it go with the flow ... no need to look back as it might hurt more than it used to be ...

he worried about me that my past

still with me ..

there's no guarantee i give him ...

all i know is ...

once its gone ..

its gone forever .

****

lets talk about friendship , shall we ?

well,

there's a group of friends we used to call as BESTIES ~

hang out together, laugh together,

but in snap of finger

pooofff !

gone !

just with the blink of an eye ~

separated in two ... stay in the middle ... what want to happen, i just let it be ..

not trying to be an angel .. also not trying to be a demon ..

its all up to them ..

i'm sick of it ..

they think they off better without us ...

keras kepala, batu api and pity to this one girl ...

a follower ~

THIS IS THE NEW US NOW ..

AND THIS IS MY BESTIE .. I KNOW HER SINCE FORM 1..

SHE'S ALWAYS THERE WHEN I'M RIGHT OR WRONG ..

CRY AND LAUGH ..

WE'VE BEEN THROUGH A LOT OF THING TOGETHER ...

THIS IS MY NEW BESTIE ... WHO ALWAYS ENCOURAGE ME ...

MY ADVICES IS HIS ADVICES ...

HIS ADVICES IS MY ADVICES ...

we stick together as FRIEND ..

i'm done

everything seems wrong today ....

don't know what to think anymore ....

blur !

blur !

blur !

blur !

feel so DAMN EMPTY !!

arrgggghhhhh !!!!!!!!!!!

why bahhhh ????

let the gone passed by ...

thats what certain people said to me ....

guess people belum kenal me deeply

judge me from what they see

but

not for what grumbling in my heart

oke ~

enough with that !

thats not the real problem ~

the thing is

I'M FRUSTRATED WITH MYSELF !!!!!!!!!!!!!

this is the reason

i know the solutions, i memorized the formulas, i've done revision

but

still

arghhhhhhhh !!

damn it !

craziehhhhh !!!

x jgak boleh buat !

hanco la peluang matriks kuuuu

ohh myyy ~

why add math never look easy to me ???

why it so hard learning u ??

yesterday ?

what happened yesterday ?

yea .. ku sakit hati with somebody ...

but, i'm not going to tell it here ...

not appropriate ...

biar laa ...

once i told u that way, thats the way it gonna be ...

what do u want to do next in your routine ,

not my business

i'm done with it !

ntah apa2 ku tulis nih ...

arghhhhhhhhhhhh !!!

gila sdh !

haha !

angau bhhh .... korang bukan taok pun ~

hehe

betul ini bhh ...

miss him so muchhh !!

aiyaaa ~~

don't believe me aa ??

nevermind lorhh ~

not my problemos senor !

haha !

teringat something ...

kinda , something ,

like a quote ...

dunno if i get this one right ...

*its takes a second to know you,

its takes a minute to like you,

its takes a month to fall in love with you

but,

its takes forever to forget about you*

people say

*love is blind, marriage is an eye-opener*

its true actually ....

people often makes mistakes in love

but,

when two joined hand in marriage life,

wooooo !!!

so besar mata ouhh !

terbeliak abis !

tu la pasal ....

tusah2 !

kdg2,

kecut kidney

when teringat semua kes yg tjadi .....

from my family laa ....

i mean,

kazen-mazen,

uncle-auntie

brothers

sisters

but,

thats part of experienced that we all should walk on one day .....

what am i talking here ?? about life kah ? apuuu !!! dah2... out2 ...

:)

a decision

dunno what to think right now . i hurt him so much . i'd made him cry . i'd made him suffer . all this while, i only think about me . i'm selfish . yes . thats the suitable word to describe me . SELFISH . and why i keep on thinking about breaking up when i suppose to know thats wasn't the right thing ? why ? why am i so stupid ?? telling me why will not answering my questions right now .i need to change . i need to take care of him . now, i'm sure and need to be really sure about how i feel . and this time, this decision that i'm gonna take, is the right one . i will not look back anymore . i have to move on with my life . with him . i have to trust him . believe him that his love for me is true . i love u .

outing ...

where do we go yesterday ? having fun op koz!

OUTING !!

there's only 5 of us .

Mel >the one and only guy<, Elliey, Lynne, Fa and lastly, me>Debbie< ... haha !

it was a great great great great

fantastic fantastic fantastic fantastic

day ~

here's the story

started with 4 of us

[girls aa..hehe]

we went to bus stop,

we thinking to use bus

but then,

a taxi stopped in front of us

the fare ?

Rm2 per person only maa ~

hehe

Elliey paid for us

thanks to her

but, huhu...they put me to sit in front ...

huhhh...

fobia me aie...

hehe ... crazy .....

arrived at destination, waited for Mel..

then, go looked for new phone for Elliey ... yeay ! bargained not worked to much this time ... but, she managed to have that cutie, beautifully, pinkish phone ...

:))

lepak2, go up and down the mall...

pranked Helen ...

poor her, but she won!

hehe

go up again ~

eat2!

photograph sessions!

sorry Mel, you are PAPARAZZI

this ARTIST don't like to her photograph taken when she eating ~

haha ~ waaa! mengada-ngada kan Mel ??

where to go next ??

take taxi again .. this time,. RM3 per person.. cannot murah2...fixed price ...

hehe

kongsi bayar maa ... no need to worry ...

stopped at Sing Kwong.. lepak sekejap over there ...

hehe .. nasib no daddy there ... selamat akuu....

we went to DONGE FASHION HOUSE ...

ohh wow! canteyks all the gown, or dresses or whatever its name is ...

i've got my chance to try one ...

so happy the owner

she even gave me high heels to match the dress!

the black dress, with a ribbon on the hip,

damn!

who did not fall in love with that of dress

totally something not right with the eyes ...

luckily, Mel sempat take photos of me in that GORGEOUS dress!

fall in love for 2nd time saw that dress

i want that dress for this year-end dinner

can i mom ??

pleaseeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

your daughter must be the most beautiful among all the girls

yes, op koz la me haven't do make over ...

naaaa....don't be jelesi2 yeaa ...

not good ...

better stop exaggerating story ...

hehe

:))

then, we went to A+

waaaa ~ i'm full, but, still want more !

thats the 1st runner up best part .....

this is the WINNER of the best part ...

we've break the record!

crossed a big road,

well, its consider big for a teenage like us because we never crossed such big road ....

there's a parit besar ..

remember guy ??

whats our memory here ??

hehe

screaming before stepped on the besi parit .... !

op koz Elliey the first one who's screaming.. followed by me, then, Fa,

Mel? not sure ... do you scream at that time Mel ?? hehe

Lynne ? the kesian one ... so scared to stepped on it .. she looked , i think quite for a while

at the running water, so deras ...

dah la that besi many had broken ...

i think thats why we so scared ...

hehe

lepak at Farley ... cannot lama2 there ... have bus to wait ....

once again this team broke record ..

remember the road, the new road across the masjid ,

eventhough got traffic light there

we just don't care ... we crossed the road anyway ...

hehe ..

jatuh my jantung ......

huuhh..... first experienced ... we never saw other people crossed that road in Bintulu ....

so, i guessed we are the first one !

wooohooooo!!

haha!

but, sadly, this outing be much better if Helen , Jane with us ....

don't know why Jane not with us..

but Helen...

aiyaa...

wrong timing la u asked your father .....

ishhh...ishh...ishh.....

hehe

besides us, op koz laa ada jgak org lain ..

our friends ...

not so close firends ...

not our gang ...

don't care ...

haha!

well, thats the end of our day ..

our story ...

our craziest moments ....

-FINISH-

pfffttt~

oke . now, i feel really down . upset . want to know why ? easy . i have waited for 2 HOURS for him . only to reply my msg . and that msg was the earlier one , before the new one been sent . i don't where he go, what he do . he didn't tell me at all . if only i asked him . but, will he tell me ? ummm ... what do you think blog ? will he ? one thing only me know what . i can't let my head think positively . bla bla bla bla .. here's come the negative thought . yea, i know i'm fine . but, who am i bluffing here ? i not fine , again !

happened today ..

like biasa, i started my day, my pagi ngan senyuman . i set my goal yesterday .. i want to study today . but, then, sbb bgn awal sgt, felt so ngantok .. only done my revision half way .. ummm.... so disappointed with myself right now... maybe thats the reason why my mood became so damn bad until without sedar, tlepas kat dia .. but, me dh mmg sakit hati ngan he pun that time . and, till now, i still figured out why . its absolutely not because of good morning thing..its other things . no need for me to mentioned it here . only me know what .

one thing you must know, and need to keep in your mind ... all my posts doesn't relate you at all .. so, why you terasa ? thats make it more worst . oke ? i'm sorry if i told you that it was your fault . why i'm said i'm sorry here ? aahh..no use at all . lantak laa .. just at the time my emotion. my feeling, my heart nak relax, breathe well, think rationally, there you again .. my post . >just don't inbox me if you busy< .. tell me what the heck is wrong with that post .. ? i'm just telling you aite ? oh God! why you make it so hard ?? you sent me msg saying that how you want to reply my msg if i kept saying "erm" and "aok" .. okeyh, i admitted that was my fault , me dh biasa digaga kenya . i'm fine with it . but, from my point of view, earlier you said how to reply right ? then, u told me you actually scared to reply me .. see ? you twisted your own word . i'm only asking you think for yourself what made me like this . you jumped into conclusion by gather all your word using my posts . there's only one thing that made me really really really really upset ! remember this word ? ~alu bkanyak meh syg ila alu nda berubah~ a bullet for me! its hit my heart!! how could you ? goshh ... i said this word three time if i'm not mistaken . even my family didn't say like that to me . now, i know how you treated a girl which is you love . okeyh, fine . i'm fine with it . am i ? NO ! i am NOT FINE .... me never marah you until me sanggup say like that . the last thing i know, i crying . basah my buku . how to study ? ummm... then , i think and make comparison between me and your ex . maybe she not like me, her ego not like mine, her attitude not like me, her stubbornness also not like me .. and maybe thats the reason why you hard to let her go back then .but for me, only one thing i know which is truly true ,. i love you . and thats will never ever change . maybe, there's some regret in your heart by choosing me as you partner for your life . you convinced me by saying that there is no regretfulness in yourself . you will not leaving me . you only have me .

i do said i hate you for saying i will not change till forever . i know . but, thats all driven by emotions. don't believe it .