a decision

dunno what to think right now . i hurt him so much . i'd made him cry . i'd made him suffer . all this while, i only think about me . i'm selfish . yes . thats the suitable word to describe me . SELFISH . and why i keep on thinking about breaking up when i suppose to know thats wasn't the right thing ? why ? why am i so stupid ?? telling me why will not answering my questions right now .i need to change . i need to take care of him . now, i'm sure and need to be really sure about how i feel . and this time, this decision that i'm gonna take, is the right one . i will not look back anymore . i have to move on with my life . with him . i have to trust him . believe him that his love for me is true . i love u .

outing ...

where do we go yesterday ? having fun op koz!

OUTING !!

there's only 5 of us .

Mel >the one and only guy<, Elliey, Lynne, Fa and lastly, me>Debbie< ... haha !

it was a great great great great

fantastic fantastic fantastic fantastic

day ~

here's the story

started with 4 of us

[girls aa..hehe]

we went to bus stop,

we thinking to use bus

but then,

a taxi stopped in front of us

the fare ?

Rm2 per person only maa ~

hehe

Elliey paid for us

thanks to her

but, huhu...they put me to sit in front ...

huhhh...

fobia me aie...

hehe ... crazy .....

arrived at destination, waited for Mel..

then, go looked for new phone for Elliey ... yeay ! bargained not worked to much this time ... but, she managed to have that cutie, beautifully, pinkish phone ...

:))

lepak2, go up and down the mall...

pranked Helen ...

poor her, but she won!

hehe

go up again ~

eat2!

photograph sessions!

sorry Mel, you are PAPARAZZI

this ARTIST don't like to her photograph taken when she eating ~

haha ~ waaa! mengada-ngada kan Mel ??

where to go next ??

take taxi again .. this time,. RM3 per person.. cannot murah2...fixed price ...

hehe

kongsi bayar maa ... no need to worry ...

stopped at Sing Kwong.. lepak sekejap over there ...

hehe .. nasib no daddy there ... selamat akuu....

we went to DONGE FASHION HOUSE ...

ohh wow! canteyks all the gown, or dresses or whatever its name is ...

i've got my chance to try one ...

so happy the owner

she even gave me high heels to match the dress!

the black dress, with a ribbon on the hip,

damn!

who did not fall in love with that of dress

totally something not right with the eyes ...

luckily, Mel sempat take photos of me in that GORGEOUS dress!

fall in love for 2nd time saw that dress

i want that dress for this year-end dinner

can i mom ??

pleaseeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

your daughter must be the most beautiful among all the girls

yes, op koz la me haven't do make over ...

naaaa....don't be jelesi2 yeaa ...

not good ...

better stop exaggerating story ...

hehe

:))

then, we went to A+

waaaa ~ i'm full, but, still want more !

thats the 1st runner up best part .....

this is the WINNER of the best part ...

we've break the record!

crossed a big road,

well, its consider big for a teenage like us because we never crossed such big road ....

there's a parit besar ..

remember guy ??

whats our memory here ??

hehe

screaming before stepped on the besi parit .... !

op koz Elliey the first one who's screaming.. followed by me, then, Fa,

Mel? not sure ... do you scream at that time Mel ?? hehe

Lynne ? the kesian one ... so scared to stepped on it .. she looked , i think quite for a while

at the running water, so deras ...

dah la that besi many had broken ...

i think thats why we so scared ...

hehe

lepak at Farley ... cannot lama2 there ... have bus to wait ....

once again this team broke record ..

remember the road, the new road across the masjid ,

eventhough got traffic light there

we just don't care ... we crossed the road anyway ...

hehe ..

jatuh my jantung ......

huuhh..... first experienced ... we never saw other people crossed that road in Bintulu ....

so, i guessed we are the first one !

wooohooooo!!

haha!

but, sadly, this outing be much better if Helen , Jane with us ....

don't know why Jane not with us..

but Helen...

aiyaa...

wrong timing la u asked your father .....

ishhh...ishh...ishh.....

hehe

besides us, op koz laa ada jgak org lain ..

our friends ...

not so close firends ...

not our gang ...

don't care ...

haha!

well, thats the end of our day ..

our story ...

our craziest moments ....

-FINISH-

pfffttt~

oke . now, i feel really down . upset . want to know why ? easy . i have waited for 2 HOURS for him . only to reply my msg . and that msg was the earlier one , before the new one been sent . i don't where he go, what he do . he didn't tell me at all . if only i asked him . but, will he tell me ? ummm ... what do you think blog ? will he ? one thing only me know what . i can't let my head think positively . bla bla bla bla .. here's come the negative thought . yea, i know i'm fine . but, who am i bluffing here ? i not fine , again !

happened today ..

like biasa, i started my day, my pagi ngan senyuman . i set my goal yesterday .. i want to study today . but, then, sbb bgn awal sgt, felt so ngantok .. only done my revision half way .. ummm.... so disappointed with myself right now... maybe thats the reason why my mood became so damn bad until without sedar, tlepas kat dia .. but, me dh mmg sakit hati ngan he pun that time . and, till now, i still figured out why . its absolutely not because of good morning thing..its other things . no need for me to mentioned it here . only me know what .

one thing you must know, and need to keep in your mind ... all my posts doesn't relate you at all .. so, why you terasa ? thats make it more worst . oke ? i'm sorry if i told you that it was your fault . why i'm said i'm sorry here ? aahh..no use at all . lantak laa .. just at the time my emotion. my feeling, my heart nak relax, breathe well, think rationally, there you again .. my post . >just don't inbox me if you busy< .. tell me what the heck is wrong with that post .. ? i'm just telling you aite ? oh God! why you make it so hard ?? you sent me msg saying that how you want to reply my msg if i kept saying "erm" and "aok" .. okeyh, i admitted that was my fault , me dh biasa digaga kenya . i'm fine with it . but, from my point of view, earlier you said how to reply right ? then, u told me you actually scared to reply me .. see ? you twisted your own word . i'm only asking you think for yourself what made me like this . you jumped into conclusion by gather all your word using my posts . there's only one thing that made me really really really really upset ! remember this word ? ~alu bkanyak meh syg ila alu nda berubah~ a bullet for me! its hit my heart!! how could you ? goshh ... i said this word three time if i'm not mistaken . even my family didn't say like that to me . now, i know how you treated a girl which is you love . okeyh, fine . i'm fine with it . am i ? NO ! i am NOT FINE .... me never marah you until me sanggup say like that . the last thing i know, i crying . basah my buku . how to study ? ummm... then , i think and make comparison between me and your ex . maybe she not like me, her ego not like mine, her attitude not like me, her stubbornness also not like me .. and maybe thats the reason why you hard to let her go back then .but for me, only one thing i know which is truly true ,. i love you . and thats will never ever change . maybe, there's some regret in your heart by choosing me as you partner for your life . you convinced me by saying that there is no regretfulness in yourself . you will not leaving me . you only have me .

i do said i hate you for saying i will not change till forever . i know . but, thats all driven by emotions. don't believe it .

geram !

last me msg u ?

i think around 5.50pm !

then

?

see !

u hilang again ...

i thought u will tell me if u leaving

like u used to do...

seems like me putting hope in the mountain high

ummm

not really care if u don't tell me

i only care about one thing

in this relationship

hey !

u leave me without love ?

pffffftttt~~

how can that be ?

lupa again like the other day

and need me to reminds u every single moment kah ?

yea

i know i'm always on your mind and your heart

for some reasons

i think you know too

it wasn't

E N O U G H !!!!

its a very very very very and very busy day for me!!!!!!

tired lorrhhh~~~~

aiyaa ......

but,

nevermind...

sate , the taste , the rempah ratus

are all mine !

mine !

mine bebeh !!

haha

xD

the best part of all is~~

laugh

laugh

laugh

and

laugh

!!!!

sakit my perut ketawa ehh

nervous me today

sbb i tot bband

due date is today~~

the

kringggg~~

*please remit ur payment within 10 days to avoid call barring*

yihhhhhaaaaaaa !!!!!

got 10 more days!!

crazyy~~

aduiiiii !!

hungry~~

mengidam~~

tosahhhh aku ngiraaa~~

hehe

always remember this one due to my changes of habit in eating

[me akan tegur nti mda syg kurus}

haha !

no bie....

me will become more big

!

i guess sooooo........

hehe

dh2,

want to balik to my FB

have my hensem n pretty children

over there

hehe

byeeee...........

5sc3 2o1o..

this is US

the ROCKERS of

ENGINEERING DRAWING 2oo9-2o10

this year ?

the last year we be together

but

we make sure that its gonna be the memorable one

we always get our teachers' head

spinning

we're so naughty

hate us ?

good then...

u only make us more FAMOUS

haha

me lorhhh~~

edited by : Melchizedek

thnxx a lot!

i loikee itt~~~

a sign of love

someone gave me this necklace

as a sign for our relationship ....

although something missing

in this necklace,

we will be together

~~hey ! a relationship not sweet enough without saying the MAGIC WORD!~~

sometimes we fight,

sometimes we do have a big fight

in the mean time

we love each other

we care about each other

and this necklace ?

will be with me

F.O.R.E.V.E.R

perfecto wannabe kononnyaaaa

AWWWW~~~~

how's that status ???

sot ehhhh...

asa diri perfecto ko ouh !!

ngek jwak....

pffffftttt~~~

hangat hati ngga ko dak ya MAKCIK oiii....

hilang mood mok bljr ngga komen2

ko nok

1ST CLASS ya...

MENYENGALKAN !!!

p, sikpaaa.....

aku sik terasa....

aku bercakap bg pihak yg terkena

maklumlahh

Malaysia kan mgamalkan

KEBEBASAN BERSUARA

hehe

ehhh~~

lupak la plak !!

need to study now~~

sok bercerita lg...

daaa~~

plz forgive me

i want him back . can u please tell him that i really love him . can u please tell me for the things happened yesterday ? can u please tell him i'm sorry for being rude to him ? can u help me ? i really really really really really need him . i miss him so much .

i know..i'm sorry. me suppose nya ingat teguran, nasihat from bie . plz, i'm sorry.. i hurt u again bie. me know that me make u felt uneasy, but, me not trying to balas dendam to u bie. me admitted that me mmg jealous..bie said that my feedback kinda want to marah u.. no...me not. me kawal anger time nyak. p, me nda ulh kawal sindiran me . about yesterday ? plz believe me...me not curang.. he just a kazen. he's no body to me.. he mean nothing to me . about the usage of that word..me know u don't like it. but, for some reasons, he know me taken by u bie..he know i'm just kidding . want to kill myself ? no, me won't do like that . its true that i'm holding a knife, me staring at it. but, me do nothing with that knife. believe me .

me sorry again for making u cry bie . me fhm bie . me fhm pgwa bie . me fhm semuanya . me just risau . me takut bie berubah ati . tusah bagi me bcos bie jauh ari me diatu . me ngaku me agak control pgerakan bie . but, that just bcos i love u so much . i don't want u to leave me . u'r the only guy that understand me, ulh nerima me walaupun me agak mangah, degil ::

sorry for minta ditinggalkan . me nda bmaksud, nda bniat pun time nyak . sorry for not minta bie kiruh ke me ag, me mdh me putus asa

SORRY

Semarak Seni 2o1o

this is the winner of Semarak Seni

SMK Kidurong 2o1o...

Diversity Hardstyler got the crowned for the dance

15 Citizens got their crowned for the band...

hey peeps ! hopefully, the DEWAN that the school want to build become reality !

we didn't make it through the night

okee?!

is that clear?!

arggghhhh !!!

this is now what i want too...

too much !!

i admit that i mad at you!

i admit that i really hurt !

ngam2..cun2..ermm...

i'm not with him for the whole day today...

bila ku fikir tonight he with me.,,

then?

he go again !

i need u oke !

can u please understand that?!

arghhh !

slh kah aku nti ngenan ke nn ?

slh kah aku nti nagang nn walaupun aku nyaut "YA" agai nn?

dh mnh ati ku gaga td,,..

diatu?

nda pa laa..

aku ngaku aku memberontak !

nahhh !

puas ati ??!!!

today at Miri.....

i start my day at 3 o'clock in the morning...
i did slept, but only for 45 minutes laa....
hehe :)
i'm so excited coz finally i get my chance to see my niece
______________
this is what happened there
at Miri..
u can't resist from eating..
most people said that
" shop til we drop"
but, not us okee...
we eat til we drop !
know memerang kan?
know how memerang acted when they full??
like that la us lam kereta td...
kereta got heavier !!
hahahaha !
waa~~good good ouh...
terbang melayang rm100...
bye2 far2 away..
n thats
we only spent on makanan only..
belum lgi food for lunch at home..
how many terbang ?
didn't count it laa...
don't care sgt actually..
_________________________
naaa...
let me cerita about this one....
we can;t stop laughing.,
talking,.
thinking
n rub our own chest because of this kejadian...
forgot about the name of that
"GLORIOUS PLACE"
:D
its located kat tgh2 bandar Miri...
if i'm not mistaken,
they call it
Centre Point...
something like that laa...
fish+manok market=fishnok market
haha !
pssttt..
don't tell anyone aaa...
u can tell how bad is the smell of manok poo kan ?
kat Bintulu dh bau kan..
here, we Bintulukian still can stand the smell kan..
hehe
but,
there??
who pew first?
my little niece !
her kakak n me tpaksa uruskan dia dulu..
dh la tmpt parking yg so grand berbau air sampah
berbau taik manok..
bad luck there !!
i stepped on the air..
berbau my kaki !
haha...
nevermind laa...
experienced la katakan...
the little girl can't stop muntah
sampai la turn me n her kakak..
muntah in front of the manok market
in front of many people !!
so mallluuuuuu !!!!
everybody staring at us that time...
we ulang alik masok that market...

balik also like that..
now, my mom tlibat dlm kejadian
she also muntah..!
beside the car g tue !
hahahaha !
the big sister muntah on the way back to the car..
me?
muntah tmpt org parking..
good spot
haha !

MLT...my dream

obviously, this is my dream..
i want achieve it because i will gain my own consent
i love being around lab
i love discover new things...
its not easy without hard work...
*cross fingers*
study smart, study hard for this...
my family are here to support me...
not only my family...
also from my daddy's side of family...
hopefully i will achieve my dream !

a person...

nothing is more important to me than u...

how's life ?

my life? its fun...its nice...
being around friends, enemies, teachers, parent, cousins..
yeahh...
its FANTASTIC....
being love by someone?
absolutely GREAT !
love someone?
ouhh..BOMBASTIC feeling...

reflection....

life is reflection from an invisible mirror...

13o81o> when the clock struck 1.18am

well, not good as u can see my blog..
how to say ? it goes like this..yeah, i admit that i already slept when the night still young. i shouldn't do like that. damn ! its wrong ! then, i've got 'mail' from dearie mind. very disturbing. n now, i can't sleep. i keep thinking about it. i know dream only a game in our sleep. but, to me every dream has its own meaning. thats what i thought before i came to this dream. i don't know what to do. yes, i only good in mood for a while.,not even until 10minutes. then, bye bye good mood. i didn't mean to questioning about his principe in life. thats not my point. i only said that those three words has the same meaning. then, what he do ? he give me something. it can be concluded as ONE SENTENCE THAT CAN MAKE GIRLS' HEART GO WOHOO. well,, not every girls' heart la...only mine i guess. what did he expect me to know ? his world is BIG for me. his love world also BIG. when i asked whether he got something else to say, he let it be. as long as i understand. ~~confession here ! hello !! sometimes i do not understand your world~~ sorry for the truth. we end up in bad situation when we have this kind of problems. goshh ! sometimes i wish i could turn back where i have no troubles with boys especially in love matter. its hard for me. be strong didn't work out sometimes..its need something else to boost up that strong attitude.