ntah apa2 ku tulis nih ...

arghhhhhhhhhhhh !!!

gila sdh !

haha !

angau bhhh .... korang bukan taok pun ~

hehe

betul ini bhh ...

miss him so muchhh !!

aiyaaa ~~

don't believe me aa ??

nevermind lorhh ~

not my problemos senor !

haha !

teringat something ...

kinda , something ,

like a quote ...

dunno if i get this one right ...

*its takes a second to know you,

its takes a minute to like you,

its takes a month to fall in love with you

but,

its takes forever to forget about you*

people say

*love is blind, marriage is an eye-opener*

its true actually ....

people often makes mistakes in love

but,

when two joined hand in marriage life,

wooooo !!!

so besar mata ouhh !

terbeliak abis !

tu la pasal ....

tusah2 !

kdg2,

kecut kidney

when teringat semua kes yg tjadi .....

from my family laa ....

i mean,

kazen-mazen,

uncle-auntie

brothers

sisters

but,

thats part of experienced that we all should walk on one day .....

what am i talking here ?? about life kah ? apuuu !!! dah2... out2 ...

:)

a decision

dunno what to think right now . i hurt him so much . i'd made him cry . i'd made him suffer . all this while, i only think about me . i'm selfish . yes . thats the suitable word to describe me . SELFISH . and why i keep on thinking about breaking up when i suppose to know thats wasn't the right thing ? why ? why am i so stupid ?? telling me why will not answering my questions right now .i need to change . i need to take care of him . now, i'm sure and need to be really sure about how i feel . and this time, this decision that i'm gonna take, is the right one . i will not look back anymore . i have to move on with my life . with him . i have to trust him . believe him that his love for me is true . i love u .

outing ...

where do we go yesterday ? having fun op koz!

OUTING !!

there's only 5 of us .

Mel >the one and only guy<, Elliey, Lynne, Fa and lastly, me>Debbie< ... haha !

it was a great great great great

fantastic fantastic fantastic fantastic

day ~

here's the story

started with 4 of us

[girls aa..hehe]

we went to bus stop,

we thinking to use bus

but then,

a taxi stopped in front of us

the fare ?

Rm2 per person only maa ~

hehe

Elliey paid for us

thanks to her

but, huhu...they put me to sit in front ...

huhhh...

fobia me aie...

hehe ... crazy .....

arrived at destination, waited for Mel..

then, go looked for new phone for Elliey ... yeay ! bargained not worked to much this time ... but, she managed to have that cutie, beautifully, pinkish phone ...

:))

lepak2, go up and down the mall...

pranked Helen ...

poor her, but she won!

hehe

go up again ~

eat2!

photograph sessions!

sorry Mel, you are PAPARAZZI

this ARTIST don't like to her photograph taken when she eating ~

haha ~ waaa! mengada-ngada kan Mel ??

where to go next ??

take taxi again .. this time,. RM3 per person.. cannot murah2...fixed price ...

hehe

kongsi bayar maa ... no need to worry ...

stopped at Sing Kwong.. lepak sekejap over there ...

hehe .. nasib no daddy there ... selamat akuu....

we went to DONGE FASHION HOUSE ...

ohh wow! canteyks all the gown, or dresses or whatever its name is ...

i've got my chance to try one ...

so happy the owner

she even gave me high heels to match the dress!

the black dress, with a ribbon on the hip,

damn!

who did not fall in love with that of dress

totally something not right with the eyes ...

luckily, Mel sempat take photos of me in that GORGEOUS dress!

fall in love for 2nd time saw that dress

i want that dress for this year-end dinner

can i mom ??

pleaseeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

your daughter must be the most beautiful among all the girls

yes, op koz la me haven't do make over ...

naaaa....don't be jelesi2 yeaa ...

not good ...

better stop exaggerating story ...

hehe

:))

then, we went to A+

waaaa ~ i'm full, but, still want more !

thats the 1st runner up best part .....

this is the WINNER of the best part ...

we've break the record!

crossed a big road,

well, its consider big for a teenage like us because we never crossed such big road ....

there's a parit besar ..

remember guy ??

whats our memory here ??

hehe

screaming before stepped on the besi parit .... !

op koz Elliey the first one who's screaming.. followed by me, then, Fa,

Mel? not sure ... do you scream at that time Mel ?? hehe

Lynne ? the kesian one ... so scared to stepped on it .. she looked , i think quite for a while

at the running water, so deras ...

dah la that besi many had broken ...

i think thats why we so scared ...

hehe

lepak at Farley ... cannot lama2 there ... have bus to wait ....

once again this team broke record ..

remember the road, the new road across the masjid ,

eventhough got traffic light there

we just don't care ... we crossed the road anyway ...

hehe ..

jatuh my jantung ......

huuhh..... first experienced ... we never saw other people crossed that road in Bintulu ....

so, i guessed we are the first one !

wooohooooo!!

haha!

but, sadly, this outing be much better if Helen , Jane with us ....

don't know why Jane not with us..

but Helen...

aiyaa...

wrong timing la u asked your father .....

ishhh...ishh...ishh.....

hehe

besides us, op koz laa ada jgak org lain ..

our friends ...

not so close firends ...

not our gang ...

don't care ...

haha!

well, thats the end of our day ..

our story ...

our craziest moments ....

-FINISH-

pfffttt~

oke . now, i feel really down . upset . want to know why ? easy . i have waited for 2 HOURS for him . only to reply my msg . and that msg was the earlier one , before the new one been sent . i don't where he go, what he do . he didn't tell me at all . if only i asked him . but, will he tell me ? ummm ... what do you think blog ? will he ? one thing only me know what . i can't let my head think positively . bla bla bla bla .. here's come the negative thought . yea, i know i'm fine . but, who am i bluffing here ? i not fine , again !

happened today ..

like biasa, i started my day, my pagi ngan senyuman . i set my goal yesterday .. i want to study today . but, then, sbb bgn awal sgt, felt so ngantok .. only done my revision half way .. ummm.... so disappointed with myself right now... maybe thats the reason why my mood became so damn bad until without sedar, tlepas kat dia .. but, me dh mmg sakit hati ngan he pun that time . and, till now, i still figured out why . its absolutely not because of good morning thing..its other things . no need for me to mentioned it here . only me know what .

one thing you must know, and need to keep in your mind ... all my posts doesn't relate you at all .. so, why you terasa ? thats make it more worst . oke ? i'm sorry if i told you that it was your fault . why i'm said i'm sorry here ? aahh..no use at all . lantak laa .. just at the time my emotion. my feeling, my heart nak relax, breathe well, think rationally, there you again .. my post . >just don't inbox me if you busy< .. tell me what the heck is wrong with that post .. ? i'm just telling you aite ? oh God! why you make it so hard ?? you sent me msg saying that how you want to reply my msg if i kept saying "erm" and "aok" .. okeyh, i admitted that was my fault , me dh biasa digaga kenya . i'm fine with it . but, from my point of view, earlier you said how to reply right ? then, u told me you actually scared to reply me .. see ? you twisted your own word . i'm only asking you think for yourself what made me like this . you jumped into conclusion by gather all your word using my posts . there's only one thing that made me really really really really upset ! remember this word ? ~alu bkanyak meh syg ila alu nda berubah~ a bullet for me! its hit my heart!! how could you ? goshh ... i said this word three time if i'm not mistaken . even my family didn't say like that to me . now, i know how you treated a girl which is you love . okeyh, fine . i'm fine with it . am i ? NO ! i am NOT FINE .... me never marah you until me sanggup say like that . the last thing i know, i crying . basah my buku . how to study ? ummm... then , i think and make comparison between me and your ex . maybe she not like me, her ego not like mine, her attitude not like me, her stubbornness also not like me .. and maybe thats the reason why you hard to let her go back then .but for me, only one thing i know which is truly true ,. i love you . and thats will never ever change . maybe, there's some regret in your heart by choosing me as you partner for your life . you convinced me by saying that there is no regretfulness in yourself . you will not leaving me . you only have me .

i do said i hate you for saying i will not change till forever . i know . but, thats all driven by emotions. don't believe it .