future ^^

ohhyeaahhh !! received letter from SEGi College . yesssss !! read , read , read and keep on reading . MPharm of Pharmacy .. Foundation first . woowww ! fantabulous news for me . pharmacy is one of my interest . more to law is what i want because i want to be the next leader in law ! *building castle in the air is not useless , but , it worth it !* . the next thing , when i filled out the application form , suddenly , i think . what if i send an email to them and list out my other course of interest and see how they respond ? *finally , i did it !* .. now , the only thing left is , waiting for my SPM result on March . *can't wait !* .. then , call to MSU and inform them about my result . ohhh . hehe ! btw , beside law , i'm also love MLT . i chose the course that will make me satisfy and not regret in my own choices of career one day ~ .. 


here i am , sitting in front of pc , typing , and thinking the next word to say . know what ? i'm positively and absolutely sure about my choices . no regret , only satisfaction inside of me now . greattt ! can't wait to tell my dad !! ohhmyy ~ really2 happy now . 


another news , i'd got my phone back .. yess ! big YESSS !! ^^ .. 
oh well readers , i'll stop here first . i'll tell more if there any news . don't worry ! 

Gospel : JOHN 2:1 - 11

very interesting extract from Bible that every couple should focus on ... the Reverend also focus this extract to young men and women ... in fact , its focus on every single person that know the meaning of MARRIAGE .. 

here it is --->> On the third day a wedding took place at Cana in Galilee . Jesus' mother was there , and Jesus and his disciples had also been invited to the wedding . When the wine was gone , Jesus' mother said to him , " They have no more wine . " Dear woman , why do you involve me ?" Jesus replied . " My time has not yet come ." His mother said to the servants , "Do whatever he tells you ." Nearby stood six stone water jars , the kind used by the Jews for ceremonial washing , each holding from twenty to thirty gallons . Jesus said to the servants , " Fill the jars with waters ," so they filled them to the brim . Then he hold them , "Now draw some out and take it to the master of the banquet ." They did so , and the master of the banquet tasted the water that had been turned into wine . He did not realize where it had come from , though the servants who had drawn the water knew . Then he called the bridegroom aside and said , "Everyone brings out the choice wine first and the cheaper wine after the guests have had too much to drink ; but you have saved the best till now ." This , the first of his miraculous signs , Jesus performed at Cana in Galilee . He thus revealed his glory , and his disciples put their faith in him . 

now , as for the conclusion , Reverend listed out four of them ...

1. invite Him to your marriage life 
2. bring your needs to Him
3. gives out what He had and
4. give out what you need ... 

i'm not sure about the last two things ... i mean , whether i heard the wrong or right thing as i was seated at the back , just a few steps away from the door .. its quite noisy and i'm not ashamed to admit that i'm kinda sleepy at that particular time ... 

the Reverend also said that marriage is an eye-opener ... for me , from my point of view , it absolutely open the new world ... 

date to remember ---> after midnight ... 280111

well , frankly , i don't know how to start the day ... half cautious , i got myself into troubles last night ... not to mention the wrong recipient of the goodnight msg , thats just a tiny things ... hilarious ... then , out of blue .. i was so damn upset , angry with him ... if my reason was because he controlling my bedtime , thats was totally lame ... 
slipped out , i mentioned her name ... he , who supposed to be sleeping at that time , wake up and asked me why her name is brought up to public ... Facebook .. of course it public .. everyone see it , the one who search for her is the one who eager to know right ? just like i was totally possessed , hypnotized by something ... BAD ENERGY ...  then , from the matter of that lady , it become deeper ... it went off the track ... out of topic ... when he asked why her , why her ... i blocked myself to answer him because i don't have the answer ... 
well , obviously , all the anger , frustrated about me all this time , he let it out last night ... can't say i'm shocked because i'm not ... regret is the exact word ... i was mad at myself ... fully awake , i made a decision ... i want to leave this world ... and yes of course ... who want his lady to leave right ? he strictly said he "banned" me from doing stupid things ... 
this morning , i clear it out .. partially .. i don't know what to think .. i'm lost .. gone with myself ... i'm not me ... not the one who always make jokes in the morning ... i smiled all day , i laughed ... inside , only me knows the pain ... then , i talked to myself .. i should listen this time ... listen to what he say no matter what ... that the best ... he want perfection in this relationship ... and i , have to be open ... more open this time ... i don't want to feel the pain either do he ...   
maybe the journey to find myself , the road i'd chose not right this time ... i need to find other way ... a way that did not hurt him , cause trouble , where i can be happy ... he hurt a lot .. its all my fault ... 
from now on , i can't promise anything ... can't bear it if i break my own promise ... if this happen for reasons , i take it ... stop being hypocrite , ego , selfish , bad-manner , negative , shallow mind ... i have to stop all that ... i want to shift it to the good side .. i have stand on the bad side for to long now ...  


in my head right now , i don't know .. its all mess up ... can't untangled it one by one ... daangg ! its so hard ... how i wish i can scream out loud right now ... maybe i just need some good day rest , good long night to sleep ... day by day , i sleep more less .. weird .. why ? wake up so damn fresh in the morning with only sometimes 2 or 3 hours of sleeping ... what a life ! 

awkward ! HAHA ^^

ceritanya begini ... kononnya , nak send gudnite msg kat si dia ... aduhh ! tertekan nombor 32665 doe ! HAHA ... malu2 ... dah la 5 minit g msg ya melekat kat wall ~ hoho ! bagi nok paham ayat2 jiwang ya tek , nang sah laa ada komen2 .. macam dua orang kakak ya tek .. malu2 !! sepantas kilat online ... aduhh .. siktauk la brapa ramai org dok baca msj ya .. malu sik terkata g tok ... dah la ayat last ya nang power .. apuu !! 

mati malu tok lak ... ishh ! 

pa la pandangan korang oo ? dah la aku asyik post status yg lain , tiba2 terkeluar plak rahsia percintaan ... malu abis tok doe ! adoe2 .. dak ney la mok menghadapi hari2 besok dan kemudian .. ? 

pikir balit , mati tetak ada juak tok lak ... gney la ku mok tutup cerita malu tok oo ? sibaiii ehhh ... !!

ukan sibai rah kejahatan , sibai rah keganjalan ... da kah dak ya ? hehe ! lantak la lipan ... sikda kesah g .. lari jak la dari fb seminggu , sebulan , dua bulan ... haha ! 

MCB bonar ... !

tok la aku malas ... semua la serba tak kena ... apa kah ? dah nya yg tiba2 tanya ttg PERIOD ... ney la aku suka ... ya isu sensitif kinek bah ... kakya , aku reply sepatah pun , mala jak kena tegur .. apuu ! sikda seput waii ... ! ngekk lalu ... bukan la mok ngutuk laki diri mpun kat ctok , malas doe .. malas .. sengal sangat2 .. naik gila olah nya ... last2 , baruk ku sedar aku perlu jimat kredit tpon ... ya la , nama dah pengganggur terhormat ... neyda elaun g everymonth ... ada pun , ikut angin org berik ... sabar jak la .. 


punya la jahat hati , panas g ... apa aku sent tadik pun aku sik ingat g ... aku marahnya kali ... sindir pun ada rasanya ... apa kah main rasa2 ? nang betul la ya .. memang marah , memang sindir ... gudnite msg pun aku buat bodoe jak .. malas ku mok lalek g aihh ... tgh2 mlm moha ... subuh jak la tdo .. biar sakit terus .. masok hospital pun bagus kali .. HAHA ... paloi2 !!


pa g ku mok share tok ? panas2 neyda pikir apa2 g ... esok edit jak la mun ada apa mok ditambah , ditolak , didarab , dibahagi ... papa jak la ... 

 O U T  ! !

first story for 2011

first of all , hello peeps ! ^^ ... brand new January will come to an end soon ... here's come Chinese New Year .. 

haisshh ~ lama dah x update blog ehh ... maklum laa .. xda story nak share ... kontang bah otak ku .. HAHA ... 

bosan asyik lepak dlm rumah ... esehh .. kununnya laa ... online jajak la kerja aku dok rumah ... makan , tidur .. lama2 gumuks ... body still maintain oOoOOooO ....................... yesss ! lama dah perah , bilas otak , x jgak jumpa jalan nak pujuk org .. nak drive bah nihh !! duuuhhhaaaa ~ .... 

new me ? no .. still the same person ... only trying to stay away from probs and all negative things .... 

January ? face a lot of difficulties especially in my relationship ... like what have been told , my probs + happy relationship = small fight +  still loving each other .... only when there's a level when i'm very serious to walk out from everyones' life ..... stupid ? yes i am ... HAHA !

stressful time , wonder how to live ... i treat ever single day as the last day on earth ... rumors here and everywhere ... DOOM'S DAY ... whatever or whenever it is , only BIBLE can tell the story ... i read THE REVOLUTION once ... haven't finish it yet ... hey ! no worry !! read it , then , u will find calmness in your heart .. believe me .. it works !